Jennifer Mitchael Wrote:
I took a photo of a mushroom growing in my yard. It started very small and within 3 days, it was HUGE. I should have put something next to it to show the size....this thing was bigger than a watermelon! I took the photo because I thought it was interesting. This morning in reading Exodus 33:15, Moses said, ”If your presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here.” It got me thinking. A fungus....starts out small and gets big, VERY quickly. It reminds me of hidden secrets. How they are small then all of a sudden, I am stuck and they are huge. Lying, cheating, yelling, faking, gossi, alcohol, pain meds, secret e-mails, secret phone calls, pornography, apathy, racism, lust, gluttony, physical abuse, verbal abuse, unforgiveness. These are just some I can think of...many I HAVE struggled with, many I STILL struggle with. It eats away at my innermost being until I purge, beg for forgiveness and start over again. Nothing, I repeat NOTHING is too big for forgiveness. There is not a thing that I have done or will do that Jesus did not pay for. This also applies to those who have hurt me. The forgiveness is not for them, it is for me ... before it eats me up inside ... before it destroys my marriage, my kids and my friends ... so that I don’t become angry and bitter. If God isn’t with me, I don’t want to go there. I do not want to hide any longer. I am Drawing Near. I have no idea what the blood of Jesus covers, but I haven’t heard of anything it can’t.
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