Anonymous Wrote:
Just before Draw Near started, I got the worst phone call of my life. I found out that he had been lying to me for several months and was in deep trouble. I remember sitting on the bathroom floor, alone, crying so hard I was sick. I cried out to God because God had told me I was suppose to marry this man, and he had given us both a glimpse of what our life together would hold. Now, just a year an a half after our wedding, it looked like it was over. I had no idea that anything was wrong. I knew our relationship was far from perfect. I knew he was opening up to me less and less. I could not figure out what I had done wrong to cause him to pull away from me. God graciously helped me see that this was not my fault, and I did not cause him to act the way he was acting.
I remember at our first Draw Near meeting our leader said, “Lots of times people don’t want to talk about their problems because they feel like its not as bad or important than the next person. No one needs to feel like that, everyone has something they are dealing with.” Then, he ran through a list of things going on in the lives of our group. Lastly, he looked at me and said, “If God doesn’t grant someone a miracle, their marriage is going to fall apart.”
I was doing everything I could and more to try to save my marriage. But nothing was working. I could not get him to talk to me and let me into his life. He was still lying to me. It was not him, I know it wasn’t him. Something or someone else had control over his mind. I remember asking God what I was suppose to do. He told me to stop trying to fix everything and just love my husband in the moment, no matter how mad and hurt I was. He asked me to trust that he had complete control over my marriage and the situation.
I have watched God take care of us the past month. My husband has stopped lying to me, and has never been so good at communicating as he is now. I cannot remember a time in our relationship that we were so close. My husband is now himself. The best possible outcome from my husband’s situation was granted to us. We got the miracle that our leader said we needed. God is the only answer to how it happened. There is no other explanation.
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